Sax maniac


Some self-help gurus say that as you get older you should keep trying new things. They suggest that learning a new skill or stretching yourself to do something difficult can make you a better person.

This may be nonsense.

Last week I took my Grade 6 music exam on the tenor saxophone.

I have not had the result yet, but I felt that it did not go very well. I made some mistakes in the pieces I played and I completely messed up playing the (simple) scales.

Over the last 12 months I have practised the scales hundreds of times. I have spent many hours of my life playing the same sequences of sixteen notes time and time again. I have imprinted the movements of my fingers on my memory so that I can do them with my eyes shut, without a musical instrument in my hands.

But I still got them wrong. I played them as if I had never practised.

This has made me very angry with myself. Furious, in fact. It has not made me a better person. It has made me a resentful, self-loathing husk of humanity with a simmering hatred of woodwind instruments and psychotic jealousy of anyone who can play them. And I also despise self-help gurus.

Mrs R thinks I am over-reacting.


5 Responses to “Sax maniac”

  1. 1 Sarah Faherty

    My daughter’s are both sitting piano grade exams in the next few days. At £50 to sit a grade 5 piano exam they better not mess up their scales!

  2. One of the few advantages of being self-taught is never having had to do any exams.

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